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We need to care enough about this world and save it from the fears and insecurities of humans, ya know? That starts with sharing. If you don't know what I mean, hello anyway, here is a little something about me...
I know I am seldom here, but if you find my email I will respond sooner. Briefly, if you like. I even text, which is naturally brief. lol. If you like a lot of words, well, you shall not be disappointed. So let's get on with this about me, in case you really want to know. :)
I signed up impulsively. I am not sure I will correspond on a regular basis. I doubt I will respond immediately because life is not that structured these days. Writing is one of my ways of processing life. The written me can be very different than the off-page me as I dump all the negativity, complaining, whining, unpleasantness (and typos) into words and then laugh at myself (and the challenges of life) and then I move along to the next moment. Sometimes the words are distractions (recently, a lot) and sometimes I feel like a genius (that passes quickly upon self-mockery and further reflection). Sometimes prose, sometimes rhymes, mostly I let words flow as an extension of my thought process.
I am not sure what I am looking for here. The bottom line desire in me is honesty - being as real, sincere, and present as possible is what I seek from myself. Anything else is even more fleeting than life itself and often meaningless. I rarely sense a real sincere presence from people, at least not one they want to share.
The saddest aspect of this life is that honest love seems too vulnerable for people to share, but it is my quest (Don Quixote and me - and I laugh even as I am at my most serious on this point). Friends tell me they admire that even as they tell me I am not being realistic. I smile and continue. Being true to honest love and myself is always the greatest personal joy in this life. :)
I find explaining the words "honest love" helps not only introduce me, but helps clarify communication, especially in written words. I use the term to express the innocent, genuine, unencumbered, and unconditional love that I want to send out to the universe. It is not meant to suggest anything more, not sensual, romantic, nor any sort of request. Just a wish to feel safe, secure, cared for, and happy. It is honesty without harm, caring without expectation, love without obligation, and a moment of serenity. My intention is to care and inspire a genuine smile.
Mostly, in recent times, life has been full of frivolous fun and that is, well, fun, but I do seeks a sense of deeper meaning, more personalized caring, more purposeful sharing. I do not seek it with all my heart/mind the way I used to (ah, scars and waning hope are rational reasons, but mostly I don't think about it for the moment).
It is just as likely that I sit here watching the world go round and round because I have no income and savings dwindles. I am staying with a generous friend and have contemplated living in my car - a bohemian lifestyle I have enjoyed in the past when it was my choice to travel and explore. I have been alive for 60 years (still a child inside though) and much of this life was what our culture would call success and luxury and some of it was what our culture would call failure and poverty. My perspective is not based on the material world as what matters to me is what is inside people (and other living beings).
What matters most to me (is an ever changing carousel with honest love at it's core), overall, is caring and nurturing friends and trying to live life and share each moment as positively as possible.
Updated (this paragraph)... When last here, years ago, I was looking for work. I found a job I love and have enjoyed it for almost three years. My friends were rewarded with ridiculous gifts (plumbing repairs, a washing machine, and assorted odds and ends). Home is big and comfortable again. I still treasure my free time, in smaller doses, and everything else in this profile is pretty much the same cuz it's me and I've been me as long as I can remember.
There is a bit of an introduction (too much for a profile?... well, it may keep the superficial and the phishers away... or not... rhetoric questions amuse me {as does pushing the limits of language rules}. As do parenthetic asides. I enjoy babbling in written words, so considered yourself warned - or tempted if you enjoy babble). :)
I hope your day smiling more than frowning and your life is as joyous as you want it to be. If it isn't, I hope you do something - life is change and you have the power to change yours. Do something that inspires your smile. :)
If you visit Lake Mary, Florida... visit Bugs Webbot (there's a phone number in the profile, you know, on FB,... leave a message cuz I don't answer numbers I don't know).
I leave these words here with no expectations. May they send you my wish for personal peace, honest love, a sense of security, and radiant happiness.
honest love,
ric
The profile has other "sections" and they follow now...
Requests
I ask for honesty.
Patience, peace, honest love, a sense of security, radiant happiness, and a genuine attempt for mutual understanding.
I have known immense euphoric joy and times of overwhelming traumatic pain in my time on this planet and it is, as the seasonal film suggests, a wonderful life. I hope to share more honest love and fun adventures with friends. I treasure the few true friends I know and hope to find a few more along the way. If I find a few people who understand me, all the more wonderful it will be.
Interests / Hobbies
Living each moment, interests vary. What occupies my time these days includes words, music, and creative entertainment. Softball, I love to play and do several times a week. Helping others - people, animals, plants, the world. I enjoy food, cooking and eating. I enjoy driving, exploring, running, walking, physical activities, wandering the web (reading, writing, listening, exploring), new experiences.
Favorite Music
Music is the audio wonderland that surrounds me with reflective experience in all aspects of life. It is energy that enhances my writing and my being. It augments my communication, creativity, therapy, and my emotional release. If I choose one favorite, I'll choose Harry Chapin, though a dozen others (Jackson Brown, The Moody Blues, Pink Floyd, Melissa Etheridge, John Denver, The Who, The Beatles, Donovan, Spill Canvas, Don McLean, Snow Patrol, Billy Joel, Aerosmith, Cat Stevens, Chuck Berry, Cream, Jim Croche, Carole King, James Taylor, Carly Simon, Simon & Garfunkel, Blind Faith, Andrew Lloyd Webber and so many shows, Dan Fogelberg, Chicago, Pink, older Beegees, Bob Dylan, Cake, Jay & the Americans, Radiohead, The Beach Boys, Black Sabbath, Cindy Bullens, Meg & Dia, Lisa Loeb, Mars Volta, Stevie Ncks, Arlo Gurthrie, Tanya Tucker, Bright Eyes, Janis Joplin, Jewel, Fleetwood Mac, Grace VanderWaal, Bruce Springsteen, Jackie Evancho, the Cranberries, Tim Chapin, Led Zeppelin, Brandi Carlisle, REM, Evanescense, Elton John, Kelly Clarkson, The Waterboys, Plain White Ts, the Four Seasons, Barbara Streisand, U2, Sarah McGlaghlin, Elvis Presley, Natalie Imbruglia, Lynyrd Skinnard, Sleater Kinney, The Eagles, 30 Seconds to Mars, Melanie, Alanis Morissette, The White Stripes, The Allman Brothers, Joni Mitchell, Death Cab for Cutie, Lana Del Rey, Bjork, Whitney Houston, Derek & the Dominoes, Madonna, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Sinead O'Conner, Jimi Hendrix, Judy Garland, Melissa Manchester, Demi Lovato, Paramore, Joan Baez, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Janet Devlin, Sia Furler, Cold Play, The Cure, The The, Emma Blackerry, Depeche Mode, Nada Surf, Rilo Kiley, The English Department, Legion, Crosby Stills Nash & Young, Amy Steinberg, Jarah Jane, Kawehi Tom, Florence & the Machine, Jethro Tull, Gavin Friday, Lily Allen, Emerson Lake & Palmer, Andy Williams, Sheryl Crow, Portishead, Marina Diamandis {sister spirit, come to visit, bring your light and spend the night... touch me with your joy and sorrow, we can save the world tomorrow}... to name a few) stand beside him and a hundred others right behind him. Some are on this list for just a song or two or a performance I experienced, but music is my life, it is not my livelihood, and the changes keep on changing, and all my life's a circle, and it takes me to a better place to be.
Favorite Books
I live another life in my written words and many lives through other writers. Even more than music, the written word expresses and releases me allowing me to process everything I experience and continue living as I am in each moment with clarity. When I have more time, I may expound further.
When I read, I want a writer to challenge my imagination. After that, I enjoy words that inspire hope and dreams. Two writers that come to mind at the moment are Robert Heinlein and Stephen King. Books that come to mind at the moment... Time Enough For Love (Heinlein), Illusions (Richard Bach), Waiting For Godot (Samuel Beckett), On Writing (King)... barely scratching the surface of my love of words.
Favorite Movies
I'll choose some and leave out some I love even ore than these, probably. It's a Wonder Life, ET, Hook, Random Harvest, Tale of Two Cities, Princess Bride, Terminator 2, Phantom of the Opera, Fiddler on the Roof, Rent, Jesus Christ Superstar, Butch Cassidy & the Sundance Kid, The Sting, too many other musicals to list and I preferred them live on stage, Mary Poppins and many Disney films, some Steven King films, Man of La Mancha, a whole lot of intelligent Sci-Fi, Some Like it Hot, The Wizard of Oz, Casablanca, You've Got Mail, Sleepless in Seattle, Tommy, Big, the Harry Potter series, City of Angels, AI, I Robot, Twilight Zone, Galaxy Quest, West Side Story, Contact, The Sound of Music, and many more favorites I'll laugh about or cry over when I remember them.
Favorite TV Shows
Intelligent Science Fiction, reaching for a more caring, loving, enlightened universe where species don't kill each other for sport or fun or fear, but rather love and support each other for mutually beneficial life...
and then some more
Favorite Quotes
"I live in the madhouse on the other side of the wall." Gibran
just a few
Language Exchange
babble
And there is so many more details I left out, but that's why I update from time to time...
Wanna know me? :)
Narf :)
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