I am not into selling myself or buying friends or love, which means I occasionally waste a little time on sites like these. I am a giving tree, the giver, if you pick up on the book references. It is a fault as much as a blessing. I do not give myself the time to optimize myself these days, a compromise that is not completely satisfying, and I'd love to find a friend who inspires me to return to a more optimal life balance. I'll do it myself eventually, but it';s more fun shared.
Happy within myself, I am loving life and who I am. I am not into make-up or masks unless it is for a costume party. Putting on airs or a show is for the stage and while I love the stage, I live to enjoy life without pretense or concern with other's judgments. Ignorance is not bliss for me. I want no delusions or dependency on drugs, gods, or any other escapes from self-responsibility and awareness in this life. Who I want is my best friend, the one who will know me and let me know her because we see eye to eye without compromise or fooling ourselves. Completely open honesty, awareness, true unconditional love and trust, and being open to the infinite possibilities of life scares most people - it is most important to me. I want someone who understands fear is a tool, not an obstacle, and we control it, not the other way around. I function within human society, however live outside of the norms in my mind and find most human culture ridiculously ignorant, wasteful, and fear-driven. People appear to choose an external locus of control, shirk responsibility, and pretend that is ok. It is not ok. I do not want to have to carry or lead someone all the time. I want someone who can and will open their heart and mind to awareness beyond the current human consciousness, understand the singularity of being alive, need to possess nothing, and want to share everything. It is a choice we make.
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This is just a scratch of the surface and the very beginning. Text me, call me, talk to me. 407-325-1482
The site sums me up like this:
About your personality
You are very curious and you love adventure, either or both intellectual and physical. So when you get interested in something, you can become extremely focused on it, sometimes to the exclusion of all around you. You pursue your interests thoroughly, too, often with originality and exactitude.
You are adaptable, competitive and a problem-solver, as well as skeptical, tough minded and determined. Because you have a lot of energy and tend to be enthusiastic about your theories and projects, you can be very persuasive. You are eager to make an impact on those around you, too, as well as in the wider world.
You are irreverent and highly independent. So you can be oblivious to authority figures, as well as to rules, schedules and social customs. And although you enjoy people and can be charming and humorous, you are not interested in routine social engagements or anyone whom you regard as boring. Instead, you seek stimulating and focused conversations; and you are comfortable being by yourself, pursuing your own many interests.
Of all twelve (primary/secondary) types, you are also the most sexual-because both dopamine and testosterone stimulate the sex drive.
It also says I am 29% Explorer, 28% Director, 25% Negotiator, and 17% Builder. The ten profiles they showed me were seven builders, two explorers, and one negotiator... all wanted something i am clearly not and all described themselves as someone i clearly stated i did not want... oh well, huh?...
Relating to others
You like to have good conversations on important topics; so people tend to admire you for your knowledge and innovativeness. You shy away from emotional or self-revealing conversations, however; introspection leaves you cold. Instead, you derive intimacy from doing things with friends or a partner. So you make an exciting, although at times aloof, companion.
In love and relationships
As an Explorer, you look out not in; you are foremost interested in the world around you. So you are attracted to a mate who is also intellectually and physically adventurous and interested in dissecting this complex, tangible universe. You particularly like imaginative and theoretical people, a "mind mate." And you like a partner who is sexual, because you regard sex as an important aspect of a relationship. You have nerves of steel and thrive on the edge. You are also decisive and direct. So you are unconsciously drawn to those who can balance out your highly independent and tough-minded spirit--those who are novelty seeking, yet compassionate, verbal, intuitive, trusting, flexible and emotionally expressive.
